...how useless and contradictory.

I'm such a fucked up bastard.

Because we're just all too good at pretending.

To-do list after Os:

1. Sew Vincent's costume. (wtf late much.)
2. Draft out story idea for photoshoot. Write out story. Plan photoshoot details.
3. Ask hina for opinions on her character.
4. Buy black feathers before PH shoot.
5. Soft toys, damn it.
6. Change foundation and concealer.
7. Settle SOY stuff ASAP.
8. Ciuccio Unit team gathering.
9. GO for Miss X Aesthetics' makeup.
10. Re-do my whole room.
11. Buy my platform boots for Riviera.
12. Collect Alais and Leythal.
13. Make a decision to prioritize between all my hobbies.

Damn, I feel like I'm forgetting things.

...to know it at this point of time.

He stared up at the ceiling with his fists clenched at the side of his body.

Am I supposed to feel relieved that I didn't exactly hurt you as much as I thought I had...? Then what is this pain and overwhelming feeling of betrayal? Despite it being over so many years ago...

He stared down at his feet and watched as a teardrop fall and crash onto the ground.

...after saying so much, if I had to choice between cosplay and sub-culture fashion, I'll still choose sub-culture fashion afterall. Lol.

Time to think of photoshoot ideas \o/ /distracted from Os.

/browsed through some sgcafe posts and decides to comment on some stuff =/.

Cosplay...has the word 'play' in it, but that doesn't mean that a cosplayer can be not serious about his cosplay. I think I'm very particular about the seriousness part. If you're just fooling and playing around, then I don't think you should even be cosplaying. Heck, I think this applies to every thing that you do. If you're just fooling around in whatever that you do, it's a total disgrace to that thing itself. When you want to do something, you need to put your heart in it, and do your best for it. That's the spirit I believe in.

Cosplayers aren't models. Yes, cosplayers aren't models; modelling is a profession; cosplaying is just a hobby. But that doesn't mean that you should lose the professionalism that models have during their shoot. IMO, if you're sick or unhappy with anything but still decide to go to the shoot, try your best to at least appear energetic during the phototaking and leave all your shit to after the shoot. Don't whine and give attitude throughout the shoot and make things difficult for everyone, including yourself. It justs shows bad on yourself.

Insulting cosplayers who are just bigger sized/tanned/whatever-body-difference-from-the-character's-features only brings shame on you. Looks are always the killer factor. Not everyone has the perfect skin/figure like the anime characters. It is a fact that when a good-looking cosplayer with not that much accuracy is compared to a not-that-good-looking cosplayer with higher percentage of accuracy, we usually love and fangirl over the good-looking cosplayer more. (That's the sad thing about life. Looks do matter no matter how much we all deny it.) However, that being said, it doesn't mean that you can deem the not-that-good-looking cosplayer as a cosfuck. He/she had tried her best to look as similar as the character as possible, but it is impossible to change one's looks/figure. (No, don't give me that "you can lose weight" shit, because some people are naturally born bigger sized than the others.) Although he/she will probably not be remembered as some 'zomg imba cosplayer <3333', he/she still has the standards required of a cosplayer. He/she does not reach the standard of being called a cosfuck. [This is just if both cosplayers have a certain standard already. If there is missing wig/severe costume error, it's a different matter altogether.]

What is it like to have a dream?
I’m beginning to understand that feeling.
I feel that...it's innocent and dazzling, like something at the bottom of a cave. No matter how much you stretch out your hand, you can’t reach it. A place of deep despair.
The good friends I’ve made here shine from a place that I can never reach.
You also shine with light.
Back then, I didn’t understand how you could be so diligent and hardworking for such a boring thing. I was too desperate to live, and because of that, I missed the point.
What forced me to become like that? I was running away. It’s unsightly of me to place the blame elsewhere.
Now, I don’t find your goal boring. It's the opposite: I’m envious of you.
Can I still grasp hold of it now? Grasp hold of the thing on the very bottom, the unreachable...the thing that might not even be there.

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